I was scared of pain my whole life. I covered it with success, with movement, with noise. I broke records, climbed fast, performed well. The anxiety and panic that ran beneath the surface were covered, always, by competence. From the outside, it looked like a life well-lived. From the inside, something essential was missing.
Then my body stopped me. In 2024, hospitalised in Panama City, I came face to face with the fear I had been running from my whole life. In the middle of the pain, one question surfaced: Is this it? When I came back, that fear was gone. And with it, the need to perform the life I had built to survive.
I wrote this book because seeing the suffering in others and in myself revealed one urgent need: to learn what we were never taught.
How to feel.
How to hold.
How to heal.
Because suffering, when met with awareness, is not the end.
It is the beginning.
Of self-reclamation.
Of returning home.
Of remembering who you are.